8 February 2012, 2:51 pm
when i was in 3rd grade my life changed when i have to move from my amazing life in iowa to a terrible life in missouri. soon after my dad abused me. its been some very hard years and they just kept getting worse. nobody ever in my family seen me cry or hide in my room until the past 2 years. my life took a turn in a direction i loved but my family didnt. i started hangiing with the wrong crowd and drinking and testing my mothers limits. i also kept getting mentally abused by both of my parent and hit by my little brother. my brother and i were fighting one day and i went and locked myself in my room and when i was about to jump in my bed i caught my leg on my dresser. it felt good a weird good tho. so since that day i cut my arm 3 to 4 times a week. i was feeling calmer but i knew that it was wrong. i just couldnt stop. the scars and cuts were getting harder to hide i was getting very nervous that my excuses of my cat got me or my horse took me threw a tree, werent working anymore. about a month and 1/2 ago my friends came over and we drank and then we snuck out we werent drunk. we walked down the street so 1 of the girls could see her bf we ended up getting caught and got in trouble. my other very close friend walked in on me crying with the tack near my arm she came and grabbed my arm and cried. she told me that i would have to tell my mom or she would. i ended up telling her the next day. she took me to the doctor and put me on antidepressants. its been 1 1/2 and i havent cut but im getting the eurges to and i dont know if i can stop myself. i cant go to my mom or dad bc there insane. i just need some advice!!!!! how do i stop???... Read More »
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